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The Power of Our Community

Harnessing the Power of our Community Alright guys, I have been doing a lot of soul searching about this site and how I can use what we have built to best benefit our community here and the world, and I am implementing something new. I want to harness the power of our community and share a family/ spouses crowdfunding page who is escaping from an abusive situation, each month. There will be a few requirements, of course. And as much as I want to, I know I won’t be able to share everyones stories. But we as a group can help to...
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My Recovery From a Narcissistic Relationship

Recovery From a Narcissistic Relationship
Recovery from a Narcissistic Relationship Where Ive been… So, there has been some serious radio silence from me these past few months. Im sorry. I finally had enough and left him and through all that, while I would have loved to be able to share my journey with you, it seemed like getting on here re-opened the wound and I couldn’t keep doing that if I wanted to heal. That said, I feel like Im doing amazing now! I have spent my time rebuilding my life and learning a TON about blogging and how to support myself both in the...
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How Narcissists Destroy Your Perception of Reality

how narcissists damage your perception of reality
How Narcissists Destroy Your Perception of Reality I found this amazing video this morning and it totally opened my eyes to whats been going on with me lately. I mean, I totally see him Gaslighting me now, I doubt him instead of myself . I have made peace with the fact that sometimes I might be wrong, but I CHOOSE to believe myself over him. Period. However, the damage has been done to a certain extent. I still obsessively check my phone for fear he has texted me and I might have missed it. I lie to avoid confrontation, I...
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Finding Myself…

This is the only place in the entire world where I can actually be myself. And the horrible, painful irony, is I cant show my face or use my real name here. I can’t risk him finding out. HOW could I ever have thought this was normal?! To have everything that’s me taken away, to be denied even the smallest voice, to be ridiculed and put down and ignored until I don’t even know who I am anymore. Ask me what I do for fun, and I can’t tell you. I don’t have fun, I have moments of peace, that...
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An Open Letter To My Abusive Husband…

Letter-To-My-Abuser
Things were bad right from the start, but I was too young and naive to see it. That’s why you picked me, isn’t it? I was so trusting, and innocent. I had no idea you were broken, no idea our relationship wasn’t normal. I believed you when you told me I was messing up, and I didn’t question you. You could control me, keep me at arms length, and enjoy all the effort I gave into making our “relationship” a success. And then, one day, I started to notice. Notice how controlling you are, how you turned everything I had...
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The Last Straw…

Sometimes I feel like an idiot. Not for the things I do wrong, according to him. But for not moving fast enough, for not realizing every day how bad it is to live with him. For not getting out years ago. And I know, its a process, if I had left years ago I would not have had any idea about what’s really wrong with him, and he probably would have wooed me back. I have a soft heart, I know it probably would have happened. So in that sense, I shouldn’t be too hard on myself. Maybe its taken...
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Narcissist- Just a Big Baby

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Narcissist- Just a Big Baby I think, in reading about narcissism all over the web, that we have significantly blurred the lines between psychopathy and narcissism, and see them as the same. Certainly there are many psychopathic narcissists, but a lot of them are just people that were broken as kids and never grew up. Does this make them less damaging? Absolutely not. but i think it helps those who have been victimized to let it go and move on with their lives when they realize they are essentially dealing with an emotionally handicapped individual. its not that they choose...
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Borderline Personality Disorder and Narcissistic Rage

Borderline Personality Disorder and Narcissistic Rage
Borderline Personality Disorder and Narcissistic Rage Borderline Personality Disorder has many symptoms in common with Narcissism. In fact, the two disorders often overlap to some extent. This can cause a lot of confusion for the spouses and partners of these people as they go from seemingly normal and ok and you start thinking “well, maybe they aren’t a narc, maybe they were just having ________” (Insert whatever excuse you happen to go to when they’re behaving badly). Not everyone is 100% psychopathic Narcissist with the heart of a snake. As with anything in life, sometimes Narcissism comes in shades of...
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Where I’m at…Forgiving a Narcissist

Where I’m At… So, I realize I haven’t posted in a while, and there’s a reason for that. Its not anything terrible, actually the opposite. I have realized that while at the beginning of this blog, writing about my feelings, writing about how horrible he’s been to me, was helpful and cathartic, it actually became really depressing and made me feel worse. I have set aside the past, I don’t want to think about it, I don’t want to live there anymore. I want to move forward and live my life. They say, don’t look back, your not going there, I...
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25 Signs Your Husband is Cheating

  25 Signs Your Husband is Cheating There is probably a million indications that someone is cheating. Everyone and every situation is different. And honestly, when taken individually, single things may not be that big of a deal. I would say, when your spouse is cheating, your gut is your first clue. Something is off and its not just the big fight you just had about nothing, there is something else. In my experience, we have always been rather relaxed, I have never really kept tabs on him or really mistrusted him in any way. So imagine my shock when...
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